I am so glad that it is the weekend! I mean, school is fine for talking to friends and stuff, but all the work is really annoying me. It's not that it's hard, exactly, but it is just so boring. I don't know how Rebecca and Lilyana manage to get such good grades. Don't they realize what a waste of time school is? Clearly not, because Rebecca has begun using studying at the library as her secondary excuse to get away from us. (Dance being her first, and must often used one.) And I hate that Maddi doesn't go to Sutton. I do have tons of friends, but I miss being with Mads. I miss talking in class to her a lot. She is so funny; and can always make me laugh in the most boring of classes. But I guess I am making a lot of new friends, which rocks. So enough bitching from me.
On to another subject, I am so sick and tired of people using 'gay' as an insult! How is it even remotely? I hate it when the people at my school use go, like, OMG, you're so gay!" It really, really, pisses me off! It's like saying "You are so blonde!" It's the same thing, people. There is nothing, NOTHING wrong with being gay! Or bisexual, like me. Which is something that nobody at Sutton can EVER know, because while a lot of them are super accepting and wonderful, there are some who aren't. And it's just not worth it. It's none of their business anyway. Samantha, however, seems to think that I should be waking up to everybody I meet and saying "I'm bi!" Good grief. She seems to think that it's a statement, instead of who I am. It really annoys me.
Sorry about a blog post that has basicly been me complaining. I promise more intersting things next time.
Melanthe
Showing posts with label Sexuality. Show all posts
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Saturday, September 15, 2012
Sunday, August 12, 2012
Melanthe - I'm Home!!!
Hey all you random people out there! If you haven't read the title, this is Melanthe, posting for the first time in almost a month. Sorry about that, by the way. I wish I could have blogged, and I feel bad about not blogging, but I do have two excuses. Number one - No Internet Service. Number two - I was way, way, too busy. But now I'm back! Well, i got back yesterday morning, but i was to busy unpacking to post. Hurray! I'm glad to be back here, but it was nice to see my family. I really miss them during the school year, but I guess being able to attend Sutton is worth it. It really is a good school. But still, it was great to be able to spend time with my parents.
And our beach house in Maine is my favourite place on earth! My parents have owned the house forever (It belonged to my dads family, and he inherited it because he's an only child like me), so I've spent at least a month every summer there since I was two. It's on the coast, and we have a little private beach that is more rocks than sand. When the tide is in, it's little more then a strip of rocks and shells, but at low tide it's a fantastic beach. All types of sand, shells, and sea-glass wash on shore, and most mornings I went looking around for treasures. Its so nice to be alone on the beach at sunset, the rising sun tinging the clear water orangey-red, the breeze cool, and the air fresh and brimming with the lucrative promises of another summer day. The water is very calm and warm, perfect for swimming. Almost every day, my best-beach-friend Tessa and I would go swimming, sometimes with other friends, sometimes just the two o us. I like Tessa a lot; I've known her for years. Her family has a summer house near ours, so we've always been close. We're summer-best-friends. Both of us have other friends back home, and we both know that. Its easy yo be with her, because we just know each other through the summers, and we don't have to deal with any long term fights, or crap, or anything. I Often, we take our boat out and have a picnic on the water, or go into the town to hang out. We like to get ice cream at one of the zillion ice cream stores, and basically jut fool around. Tessa has a kind-of-boyfriend named Josh. A lot of time, he hung out with us. He has tons of friends that were available - and cute! but I somehow didn't feel like doing that this summer. I'm not sure why. They say most people who are bisexual really prefer one gender over the other. But I don't know. I don't feel that way. Is that wrong? Maybe I just need time, but I want to know now. I don't want to, say, get a girlfriend, but then realize that I really prefer boys! That would be weird. And mean, (to the girlfriend, I mean), because what if she actually like me a lot? I don't want to risk that. So I guess i'll just have to wait. i mean, its not like i really want to get romantically involved now. Alright, I'm really and truly off topic here.
So......I'm back now. Back in Boston. Back to.......I don't know, exactly. From reading over the blog earlier i gather things have been kinda....odd around here. I read about what was happening with Lily's dad. I feel bad for her, I would never want my parents to divorce, and I they did, I'd totally freak out if one of them remarried! That would be horrible! I don't know how Lily is being so open about that, i really don't. It all sounds horrible to me. And I do admit, Rebecca is being weird. Weirder then usual. But really, what else is new? She's been in a pretty good mood lately, though. More upbeat then i've seen her in ages. But Samantha's right. She's gotten very reckless, it seems, based on what Samantha told me last night, and what I've seen since I got back. She started screaming at Samantha's mom yesterday, for no reason that I could see. Last night, I heard her get up. I thought she was going out to the roof, as she so often does, but when i got up to go to the bathroom, I looked out the window and she wasn't there. I don't know where she goes. But Rebecca's always been kind of a mystery to me. To us. So really, who cares what she does.
Moving. Samantha told me that it won't be in the next week or so because, they haven't found a buyer for the house yet. I hope it never sells, because I don't want us to split up. I don't want to find another household to board with, I'm happy here. I like staying with Samantha's family, I like being so near to Maddi's house. There must be some way I can stay with them, there must. We're having another family meeting again in a couple days. Maybe we'll find a way. I hope Rebecca isn't as violent as last time, though. Honestly, I don't know why she can't find another family to board with. What is it on her record that makes people reject her like that? I'd love to know, it must be something really bad. Still, I don't even know why she left her school in New York. It was much better then Sutton School For The Arts. I can't see her leaving a great school for a not so great one; she's so career-oriented. She could go back, go back to her old school. Back to the city. Then I could still board with the Parkingtons. I wish.
Melanthe
And our beach house in Maine is my favourite place on earth! My parents have owned the house forever (It belonged to my dads family, and he inherited it because he's an only child like me), so I've spent at least a month every summer there since I was two. It's on the coast, and we have a little private beach that is more rocks than sand. When the tide is in, it's little more then a strip of rocks and shells, but at low tide it's a fantastic beach. All types of sand, shells, and sea-glass wash on shore, and most mornings I went looking around for treasures. Its so nice to be alone on the beach at sunset, the rising sun tinging the clear water orangey-red, the breeze cool, and the air fresh and brimming with the lucrative promises of another summer day. The water is very calm and warm, perfect for swimming. Almost every day, my best-beach-friend Tessa and I would go swimming, sometimes with other friends, sometimes just the two o us. I like Tessa a lot; I've known her for years. Her family has a summer house near ours, so we've always been close. We're summer-best-friends. Both of us have other friends back home, and we both know that. Its easy yo be with her, because we just know each other through the summers, and we don't have to deal with any long term fights, or crap, or anything. I Often, we take our boat out and have a picnic on the water, or go into the town to hang out. We like to get ice cream at one of the zillion ice cream stores, and basically jut fool around. Tessa has a kind-of-boyfriend named Josh. A lot of time, he hung out with us. He has tons of friends that were available - and cute! but I somehow didn't feel like doing that this summer. I'm not sure why. They say most people who are bisexual really prefer one gender over the other. But I don't know. I don't feel that way. Is that wrong? Maybe I just need time, but I want to know now. I don't want to, say, get a girlfriend, but then realize that I really prefer boys! That would be weird. And mean, (to the girlfriend, I mean), because what if she actually like me a lot? I don't want to risk that. So I guess i'll just have to wait. i mean, its not like i really want to get romantically involved now. Alright, I'm really and truly off topic here.
So......I'm back now. Back in Boston. Back to.......I don't know, exactly. From reading over the blog earlier i gather things have been kinda....odd around here. I read about what was happening with Lily's dad. I feel bad for her, I would never want my parents to divorce, and I they did, I'd totally freak out if one of them remarried! That would be horrible! I don't know how Lily is being so open about that, i really don't. It all sounds horrible to me. And I do admit, Rebecca is being weird. Weirder then usual. But really, what else is new? She's been in a pretty good mood lately, though. More upbeat then i've seen her in ages. But Samantha's right. She's gotten very reckless, it seems, based on what Samantha told me last night, and what I've seen since I got back. She started screaming at Samantha's mom yesterday, for no reason that I could see. Last night, I heard her get up. I thought she was going out to the roof, as she so often does, but when i got up to go to the bathroom, I looked out the window and she wasn't there. I don't know where she goes. But Rebecca's always been kind of a mystery to me. To us. So really, who cares what she does.
Moving. Samantha told me that it won't be in the next week or so because, they haven't found a buyer for the house yet. I hope it never sells, because I don't want us to split up. I don't want to find another household to board with, I'm happy here. I like staying with Samantha's family, I like being so near to Maddi's house. There must be some way I can stay with them, there must. We're having another family meeting again in a couple days. Maybe we'll find a way. I hope Rebecca isn't as violent as last time, though. Honestly, I don't know why she can't find another family to board with. What is it on her record that makes people reject her like that? I'd love to know, it must be something really bad. Still, I don't even know why she left her school in New York. It was much better then Sutton School For The Arts. I can't see her leaving a great school for a not so great one; she's so career-oriented. She could go back, go back to her old school. Back to the city. Then I could still board with the Parkingtons. I wish.
Melanthe
Saturday, June 16, 2012
Melanthe - Shopping with Maddi
Hey ya’ll! Its me, Melanthe, but I go by Mellie a lot. I
come from Canada, as you probably know from the last post. I like to shop,
which, by the way, was what Maddi and I did today. Maddi is my best friend, and my neighbor.
She lives across the street from us, with her hot older brother Jake. (and, well duh, her parents. But they don't really count.) He is a drummer in a band, and 16 years old. He is SO cute, with adorable blond hair (like Maddi) and green eyes. (Unlike Maddi.) Maddi is my best friend, and she and I are a lot alike. She's very fashion conscious, like I am, and we both love pink and shopping. Maddi is very fun and giggly, a flirty type of girl, one of the most popular in her class. She doesn't go to Sutton like I do; She goes to the Public School; Sarette Middle School. Its hard not being in her class, but its also fun because we always have tons to talk about.
Wearing clothes that look good at you make you feel good, that’s what I think. People may say I’m shallow – I don’t get that, because I'm not. I just like dressing up, and there is nothing wrong with that. They need to stop stereotyping, and start living. I’m just myself. I like pink, I like clothes. OK fine, maybe I’m no good in school, but I'm not a boy crazy ditz. Actually, i’m bi. People give me a lot of shit about that when I tell them, so I don’t. If they ask, they are not getting a response. If they are gonna bitch about it, they don’t need to know. Samantha says i’m not being true to myself when i pretend to gush about boys, but I don’t care. I do like boys, its not lying. Not really. In today’s world, its what we need to do. She doesn’t understand, she never could, so I don’t get annoyed when she says stuff like that. People used to call me names back in Canada – now they don’t. How is that a bad thing? I don’t think it matters if the whole world knows i’m bi, as long as I accept who I am. Who cares what they know and think of me? Samantha sometimes acts as though being bi is a choice, a statement, but I’ve never seen it that way. Its who I am. And people who tell me I’m gonna burn in hell – Their problem. Hell is probably more interesting then heaven anyway, right? Heaven must be boring. That’s why I’m not religious, it makes no sense! Just no sense, and if God was really all-forgiving, then wouldn't he - Wait. This post is supposed to be about shopping, not my sexual preference. Sorry.
So, anyway, Maddi and I went to the Mall today, and got a couple fantastic new outfits! I found this great tight, green, long-sleeved top, which looks so good with my eyes! Its so hard to find good clothes here, really it is. American Girl is the best, but its so expensive! Our Generation is better priced, but kinda ribbon–y, and youngish. Lilyana likes it, which just goes to show you. Urgh. I'd never shop there, I swear to god it is a nut house for immature brats. They also have horrible shoes. Some store brands are OK though, that’s where I got the green top. There was a fantastic purple halter dress that I wanted to get, with little violet sequins around the hem, but I didn't have enough money. Too bad, I'll get it next time. I would have just stolen it, but I didn't want to do that in front of Maddi. She doesn't like it when I shoplift, whereas I have no problem with it. Oh well, to each his own, I guess. Then Maddi and I looked at bathing suits, which was fun. I found this really nice purple one with cute little straps. I always wearbBikinis, unlike Lilyana, who always wears a two-piece. Well, if she wants to look like a baby, thats her problem. Maddi found a nice red bikini, but they didn't have it in her size, which sucked. Maddi can be very picky about bathing suits, so she ended up not getting one. I was annoyed at first, but that just means we'll have to go back, so thats awesome!
Maddi and I went to Starbucks after. I got a cheese Danish, and Maddi got her favorite Cranberry Orange Scone. I cannot see how she likes those, they really make me gag. I think Cranberries look like red turds. Sorry, but I do. I cannot understand how she eats them. We talked school, and boys – and girls – and shoes. Sometimes, its fun being with friends.
Mellie
Wearing clothes that look good at you make you feel good, that’s what I think. People may say I’m shallow – I don’t get that, because I'm not. I just like dressing up, and there is nothing wrong with that. They need to stop stereotyping, and start living. I’m just myself. I like pink, I like clothes. OK fine, maybe I’m no good in school, but I'm not a boy crazy ditz. Actually, i’m bi. People give me a lot of shit about that when I tell them, so I don’t. If they ask, they are not getting a response. If they are gonna bitch about it, they don’t need to know. Samantha says i’m not being true to myself when i pretend to gush about boys, but I don’t care. I do like boys, its not lying. Not really. In today’s world, its what we need to do. She doesn’t understand, she never could, so I don’t get annoyed when she says stuff like that. People used to call me names back in Canada – now they don’t. How is that a bad thing? I don’t think it matters if the whole world knows i’m bi, as long as I accept who I am. Who cares what they know and think of me? Samantha sometimes acts as though being bi is a choice, a statement, but I’ve never seen it that way. Its who I am. And people who tell me I’m gonna burn in hell – Their problem. Hell is probably more interesting then heaven anyway, right? Heaven must be boring. That’s why I’m not religious, it makes no sense! Just no sense, and if God was really all-forgiving, then wouldn't he - Wait. This post is supposed to be about shopping, not my sexual preference. Sorry.
So, anyway, Maddi and I went to the Mall today, and got a couple fantastic new outfits! I found this great tight, green, long-sleeved top, which looks so good with my eyes! Its so hard to find good clothes here, really it is. American Girl is the best, but its so expensive! Our Generation is better priced, but kinda ribbon–y, and youngish. Lilyana likes it, which just goes to show you. Urgh. I'd never shop there, I swear to god it is a nut house for immature brats. They also have horrible shoes. Some store brands are OK though, that’s where I got the green top. There was a fantastic purple halter dress that I wanted to get, with little violet sequins around the hem, but I didn't have enough money. Too bad, I'll get it next time. I would have just stolen it, but I didn't want to do that in front of Maddi. She doesn't like it when I shoplift, whereas I have no problem with it. Oh well, to each his own, I guess. Then Maddi and I looked at bathing suits, which was fun. I found this really nice purple one with cute little straps. I always wearbBikinis, unlike Lilyana, who always wears a two-piece. Well, if she wants to look like a baby, thats her problem. Maddi found a nice red bikini, but they didn't have it in her size, which sucked. Maddi can be very picky about bathing suits, so she ended up not getting one. I was annoyed at first, but that just means we'll have to go back, so thats awesome!
Maddi and I went to Starbucks after. I got a cheese Danish, and Maddi got her favorite Cranberry Orange Scone. I cannot see how she likes those, they really make me gag. I think Cranberries look like red turds. Sorry, but I do. I cannot understand how she eats them. We talked school, and boys – and girls – and shoes. Sometimes, its fun being with friends.
Mellie
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